Thankful at Thanksgiving


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I was listening to Nick G, from The Dependent Independent, this morning and he really inspired me. He was talking about being grateful. More importantly, he was talking about the mundane, every day stuff, that we can and should be thankful for but sometimes feel ashamed for feeling grateful.

Confused yet?

For instance, I’m grateful for how confident I am becoming. Saying that out loud might seem pompous or egotistical but that’s ok. I’ve worked really hard to become more confident. I still have days and moments when I’m far from confident but that is also ok. I’m grateful for the change. Continue reading “Thankful at Thanksgiving”

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Shaking with Fear, Sharing my Truth


I posted a picture earlier this week. It was of me 8 weeks post-partum and one of me as of Sunday, October 29, 2017. The difference to me is shocking. It might not be to others but they don’t really know what is most shocking to me.

I’m about to tell you.

I’m extremely scared to tell this story but it’s been on my mind and in my head for too long. I need to release it and allow me to embrace and accept me.

Prior to discovering I was pregnant on July 4, 2015, I was self-destructing. Continue reading “Shaking with Fear, Sharing my Truth”

What’s Momma Listening to? The Idiots


As part of my new weekly (fingers crossed) spotlight on my love of podcast I’d like to introduce you to, The Idiots!

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Andy Julia and his pack of idiots help get me through days when I wants to throw something or someone off a tall structure. This is a new show for me but one I needed without knowing it was missing.

It reminds me of the Howard Stern show, no filter! Exactly how I like it! I lost track of Howard once he moved to satellite and now too much time has passed. I’m just too busy to keep up. It is what it is.

They tackle topics that range from serious to randomness. Not everyone agrees at all times but they respect each other. That’s what counts.

This wasn’t a show I went searching for, I actually came across it through Andy. He commented on a post I made in a group I frequent. It’s amazing how interconnected the podcasting world is, I would never have suspected that Andy and his crew would be associated with GayTalk 2.0, if I based it on outward appearance only. This further proves my point that you can’t judge a book by its cover, although that’s EXACTLY how I choose books! The irony isn’t lost on me folks.

I’ve learned some new dirty words, which is always a plus! I’m becoming familiar with just how infected a finger can be, don’t ask, just listen to the show.

I started with the most recent shows but I am making my way backwards so that I can become more familiar with each host. I’m horrible with names so it’s going to take me time to know the entire crew.

So far I’ve related with Drea Richard and Chris Hayes the most. I share similar views with both so it doesn’t surprise me but we’re not so similar that I blindly nod along with every word spoken. I don’t think anyone should ever have that much in common, where’s the fun in that?!?

Andy Julia has a great voice, it’s the perfect mix of gravel and smoke. It’s like you never want him to stop talking but never want him to use the voice for evil, like say…toward you, in a fight.

This is really just a podcast that allows a group of friends to share their daily communications. I can see the same conversation happening at someone’s house over the weekend or during dinner on any given night. The close nit feelings that come with the personal interactions allow you to quickly delve in without fear of missing anything. It’s hard to miss, trust me!

Something I find immensely enjoyable is when I disagree with a topic or someone’s stance on the show. It’s because they give reasons for those beliefs and it allows me to understand a new perspective. That’s something I’m learning to embrace more and more as I get older.

This most likely isn’t a show for anyone under 18. I’d give it an NC-17 just to cover all bases. The discussions can be graphic yet informative but it might be something you want to chat with your kids about prior to listening. Regardless, if you’re not easily offended and enjoy vulgar humor this is the podcast you’ve been missing!

Light in the Dark


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I’m having a hard time.

There, I said it.

I feel myself folding in on myself.

I do everything I’m supposed to do throughout each day. I work, care for my child, interact with my husband, laugh with my mom, etc. But the entire time I’m hyperventilating on the inside. My thoughts are erratic and I’m in a constant state of stress.

I have zero attention span, I’d rather be hiding in a book or playing the new Family Guy game I’ve discovered on my phone. Anything to be invisible and alone. But I can’t do that. I have responsibilities. I have people that I love, that depend on me to be present. Continue reading “Light in the Dark”

#BookReview: One Hundred Years of Marriage


In a series of interlocked stories Louise Farmer Smith, the author of ONE HUNDRED YEARS OF MARRIAGE, pierces the myths through four generations of one American family’s mismatched marriages–the teenage girl lifted out of the hunger and chaos that followed the Civil War; the suicidal wife isolated on the Oklahoma prairie; the china painter whose husband cannot make a living; and her daughter who dreamed of luxury. Dark? Yes, but full of humor too. These six stories move backward in time to search out the influences on the next generation–the standards, prejudices, and overheard conversations that they forget but carry with them when they choose a spouse.
This novel in stories is a practical pre-history of the momentum leading to women’s liberation. It is a substantial addition to the social history of American women. Thoroughly researched the stories compellingly paint the settings of post-Civil War pioneer life and the female-dominated 40s, with the men at war.
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