Light in the Dark


pexels-photo-351773

I’m having a hard time.

There, I said it.

I feel myself folding in on myself.

I do everything I’m supposed to do throughout each day. I work, care for my child, interact with my husband, laugh with my mom, etc. But the entire time I’m hyperventilating on the inside. My thoughts are erratic and I’m in a constant state of stress.

I have zero attention span, I’d rather be hiding in a book or playing the new Family Guy game I’ve discovered on my phone. Anything to be invisible and alone. But I can’t do that. I have responsibilities. I have people that I love, that depend on me to be present. Continue reading “Light in the Dark”

Advertisements

Want to be my friend?


How do you start socializing a 16 month old? An only child? Any kid?

I have no idea where to start, or rather I didn’t but after talking with my friend Nick G I’m getting a better idea. He made some great suggestions and I’m going to follow up and research some ideas. Finding a swim class sounds really fun. My ninja LOVES water! I truly believe she’d live in the tub or the kiddie pool in our back yard if I let her.

Is this just an only child issue? Is it because I’m not a social person and have no friends with small children? Continue reading “Want to be my friend?”

Who Has the Power?


pexels-photo-312839

Has there ever been someone in your past or maybe someone in your current life that makes you experience emotion beyond reason?

For example, the sound of their voice or the statements they make cause instance anger, frustration or fury?

Are you able to get past it or are you currently in the middle of it and have no escape from these emotions? Continue reading “Who Has the Power?”

I Say Friday, You Say Party (Thanks Teen Titans GO!)


Happy Friday!!

friday-1270362_960_720

This has been some week, right!

Well, maybe for me. Monday through Wednesday is a blur, I’m pretty sure it was just one long day. I felt like I was constantly going!! That was actually good, these last two days have dragged ass and has made for long work days.

On the home front my little Ninja is being her marvelous self. Last night she chased the laser with the cat and tried sweeping the backyard. Gotta love a kid who volunteers to clean, and at such a young age too! She’s also learned how to blow kisses, it’s the cutest thing EVER!

I’ve reached a point that my “fat” clothes no longer want to fit right at all. SIGH…I mean, it’s a good thing but also means I need to go shopping. I hate shopping! Dressing rooms always seem to be so damn hot, or maybe that’s just me having a panic attack. I can never find a decent shirt.

ATTENTION CLOTHING DESIGNERS!! SOME OF US ARE LONG WAISTED!

I’m also trying to get into accessories! My friend is selling the Paparazzi jewelry (EVERYTHING IS $5) and I’m completely addicted! I want to buy everything and it’s a struggle now to! The rings are to die for! They have elastic bands so no worries about sausage fingers.

If you’re interested here are the links:

FaceBook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/195365380962233/

Paparazzi Page: https://paparazziaccessories.com/68765/

I don’t get anything for asking you to check it out. I just love it and share what I love!

Yesterday was bring your kid to work day, I cannot wait until my little bird is old enough to bring to work! It’s perfect that she isn’t now, I work with some people I don’t want tainting my kids with their negative shit. They’ll be gone by the time she can come with me. Damn, that sounds really mean but oh well. I’m in that kind of mood today.

I’m happy but not taking any shit! I highly recommend it!

SO happy Friday and enjoy your weekend. Love your people and love yourself!

Head, Meet Wall….


I’m blocked.

pexels-photo-272254

I don’t have any ideas. I have no idea what to write about that might carry any interest. How many people will actually read it anyways? Life is so busy and hectic, who has the time?

I’ve thought about writing about how I feel after being a mom for a full year. Do you want to hear about it? I talk and think about my daughter all the time. She’s my golden moment, my bliss, my exhaustion. Nobody else wants to hear about her that much, and that’s ok! Continue reading “Head, Meet Wall….”